A review of: Un M Othered

Actress, author and recent PhD , Liz DeBetta has a beautifully choreographed, written and expressed one-woman play regarding her experiences as an adoptee. The show is cleverly titled, Un M Othered.  

I can’t begin to list every poignant line in her play because there are so many, but she has eloquently and accurately expressed many of the ways we adopted people view and interpret the world in which we live and cope. 

Her acting and writing are elevations of the adoptee voice perspective. Her thoughts and emotions reflect what many of us have felt either currently or at some point in our lives. 

I hope every adoptee can experience this play. It is available on Vimeo, and given that going out to see a play is a rate and wonderful thing right now, this show is a real treat in many ways. Some of my favorite lines are as follows:

Books gave me permission to escape the confusing reality of my life…” (So incredibly true!)

Loneliness keeps me from me...”

She refers to a life of “…accepting crumbs...” when it comes to relationships and personal info about her origins, and here’s a real zinger of a line:

I just want to find the center point of myself again; see me clearly; clearly see me…and it’s hard to find the center point of yourself when you spend so much of your life confused and conforming to ways of being that are expected of you.”

As I said, I could go on and on citing amazing, heartfelt, raw yet eloquent excerpts from this evocative stage production.

This is the link to Liz Debetta’s extraordinary work: https://vimeo.com/397194620/03cd91831c?fbclid=IwAR1FMqHWRAt7ZtSxkcpmzZBEV0cNhTgfkkRm0qIZXbPuUPiZaSi7pRfeGEk

Bravo!

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Review of Synchronicity & Reunion: The Genetic Connection of Adoptees and Birthparents

Have you ever searched for and found a missing biological relative? Have you discovered quirky, unique or crazy similarities or common patterns in your lives, even though you’ve lived apart?

Although this book was written back in 1992 by the late LaVonne Harper Stiffler, the information is quite timely and suitable for today’s adoptee or bio parent. The author begins the book with a basic introduction in adoption psychology, which may or may not have anything to do with synchronicity or meaningful coincidences but is spot-on. It sets the stage for later chapters and the information provided is useful for any adoptee or 1st parent who is considering the search and reunion experience. She describes the need to search as a “…the human homing mechanism…”.

Stiffler also frequestly references the “mobius connection paradygm strip:

Mobius-Strip.jpg | Copley Raffas a way to explain the interconnectedness of paths between the adoptee’s life and that of the biological family’s regarding amazing coincidences and other phenomonae which exists but cannot be scientifically explained (yet). She cites various heavy-hitting adoption “all-stars” such as Betty Jean Lifton and Nancy Verrier along with reputable phsychological theorists from history: Jung, Freud, and Kammerer, plus many others.

This book also contains a plethora of adoption-related coincidence stories collected by the writer, which are amazing and fun to read. Unexplained yet existing synchronicities can happen with dreams, career choices, names, common birth, marriage and death dates among families, even ESP-type happenings and “gut” feelings.

 

Book Review of Togethermore Rejection and Reunion, by Roderick Edwards

Togethermore Rejection and Reunion is simple, concise, and a very quick read. It is the story of an Indiana man who interestingly describes what many adoptees label “the Fog”  in a unique way: “a state of virtual amnesia for fifty years”. The reader does not learn much about how Roderick grew up regarding his adoptee experience. (Perhaps because the author does not have many positive things to say.) Instead, the story takes you right into the moment when he receives his OBC in the mail a year after he and his wife decided to take DNA tests. He builds a family tree based on the sketchy information he does have and finds a nephew who puts him in touch with a sibling who, in turn, connects him with his other siblings.

The rest of the book tells in detail about Roderick’s critical and life-changing first year in reunion as he meets an elderly aunt, sisters, brothers, nieces, and nephews. (AKA “niblings“) Roderick’s emotions soar through the understandable spectrum of instant elation, never wanting to separate from the family again to, as the author puts it, “…trying on a suit that doesn’t fit”. Many times he feels torn between two unique worlds: his constructed, traditional family via marriage and his very large and diverse biological relatives. Roderick does a good job of explaining how prior to searching, some adopted people have perhaps constructed a biological or birth family of a certain image, which does not pan out in reality. This can be a good or a bad coping strategy, but it is important for those searching for important people to be aware that reality and imagination do not tend to match perfectly.

Togethermore reads fast and is relatable and understandable. It could be a great resource for adoptees, especially for those who are beginning to gather facts and search tools.  As more states open up records, there will hopefully be more people searching for their first past, and this little book might be very handy because it is realistic, contemporary and easy to absorb in one sitting.

Adoptees & COVID-19 Quarantine: We have a plan!

I’ve been trying to figure out what to say regarding this topic as it relates to adopted people. Of course, there is a spectrum of responses because no two adoptees (or people in general) are alike, so this is hard to qualify.

Many of us are trying to find ourselves all over again since this pandemic. Maybe we had a functioning identity we’d finally come to terms with because of our profession or other roles in society, but now our jobs are different or in some cases, nonexistent. Perhaps we have had a significant relationship change during this time so that now we don’t see ourselves connected to others in the same way as before due to separation or loss. Adoptees who could define themselves by certain activities like sports, arts, tourism or other forms of leisure services are searching for new ways to find a role that feels necessary yet emotionally fulfilling.

Then there’s the fact that many adoptees are already struggling with who they are regardless of world circumstances because they have a lot of missing information about their past. Pandemics do not stop us from wondering where and from whom we came. In fact, as we feel our existence threatened, we might be sensing this more intensely, especially if we fear time is running out and our options for self-discovery might become even more limited not just by out-of-date laws but now because of nature.

It’s more important than ever to connect with other adoptees and folks who may be on a similar path. We might not be able to be in the same building together, but we can join through social media interest groups and participate in online chats via Face Time, FB messenger, Skype, Zoom and many more. This is why I am encouraging you to join the Indiana Adoptee Network’s series of Zoom “Happy Hour” chats on Friday evenings. We are a fun, caring group and are sharing our talents, passions, and connections as we would as if the actual conference occurred. Whether you wish to join actively in the conversations or just be an observer, you are not alone, and you are welcomed!

Here is a link to this Friday’s gathering:

https://www.eventbrite.com/e/indiana-adoptee-network-happy-hour-registration-102079029124

Zoom is easy to use if you are not familiar. Once you register (it’s free) you will receive a link. Download the Zoom app (also free) and then follow the invitation link!

See you there!

‘Tis the Season…

of Adoption Conferences!

I am thrilled and thankful to be going once again. Due to timing, I am unable to attend ANC’s Journeys of Discovery gathering near Cleveland, OH March 20 and 21st, 2020. It celebrates the 5th anniversary of the opening of adoption records in my state, Ohio, back in 2015. I went to that one five years ago. We marched in support and solidarity in the rain while creating a historical moment.  It was magical, marvelous and so much fun.

Here’s a link to this year’s Ohio conference: https://www.adoptionnetwork.org/2020-conference/journeys-of-discovery-2020-conference.html and also a big shout out to Betsie Norris and the other Adoption Network Cleveland folks who have strived and continue to work tirelessly to support members of the adoption community while advocating for laws which have opened the way for many satisfying and enlightening biological family reunions for Ohio adoptees. Go to their event if you can. I’m sure it will be worth it.

As for me, I will be attending and presenting at the Indiana Adoptee Network’s 4th annual conference in Indianapolis, Indiana, March 27th and 28th. It will be two days of speakers, workshops, networking and fellowship with members of the adoption constellation from all over. Pam Kroskie, Marcie Keithley and Jennifer Fahlsing head up another amazing team of advocates for adoptee rights and adoption-centered events. This year, my adoptee friends/colleagues: Lynn Grubb, Laureen Pittman, Marcie Keithley and I will be participating in an author panel discussing our experiences in adoption and Writing Our Truths. We hope to cover the creative writing process, helpful advice for how to pursue writing and stick with it, publishing options, promoting and marketing your written work plus fielding questions from members who join us. This gathering will also feature classes in yoga, genetic genealogy, search & reunion, loss, adoptees in recovery, fun merchandise for purchase and so much more.

Here is the IAN site: https://www.eventbrite.com/e/indiana-adoptee-network-4th-annual-conference-tickets-70225449209

For anyone reading this entry, I hope you can find a way to attend an adoption-themed conference, sometime, somewhere. It is very powerful and inspiring to be in rooms filled with kindred spirits because our lives have all been touched by the same general thing: Adoption. I would attend both of these worthy events if it were possible. No matter how many conferences I go to, after all these years of experience, it is always a best decision to go and it’s totally worth it.

Attending an adoption conference is a form of self-care. It’s about connectedness, learning, and friendships. There are moments when you feel in the presence of rock stars, and there are times to reflect on your own priorities and needs. It’s a unique retreat. Just go and be. You will not be sorry.

Oh, and have fun!

The Shoebox Effect:

Marcie J. Keithley’s newest book, The Shoebox Effect, is both memoir and self-help. It’s about how so often we humans tend to suppress painful feelings and old memories by creating an emotional/virtual shoebox. (Sometimes too, we create an actual shoebox with actual mementos.) We store old thoughts and sensations as well as physical items away so as to avoid or escape the reality of their existence. It’s a coping mechanism. Sometimes it’s what we need to do in order to get through a difficult time. The problem is, it becomes a bad or wrong thing at some point when suppression or subconsciously forgetting hinders our or our loved ones’ quality of life. Triggers will always come back, and you never know when.

The Shoebox Effect tells of Marcie’s experiences as a young adult mother, struggling to come to terms with family disruptions and unplanned situations during a time when society and women’s roles had different assumptions than today. Her writing is effective in “taking the reader back” to a simpler but challenging time in history when women and mothers had more traditional and conservative expectations. Changes were slow in coming, and helpful resources for struggling, unmarried young mothers were limited.

In some ways, The Shoebox Effect also reads like a self-help or a workbook because reflection pages are provided where the reader can journal or make notes about their personal thoughts. This interactive approach which includes spaces for questions and answers can help readers feel as though they are a pair of a conversation instead of just reading someone’s life story.

Author, Marcie Keithley genuinely cares about helping any reader who has emotionally or physically stored away pieces of unfinished life business by sharing the experiences endured by herself and other significant family members. This book will be very helpful for adoptees seeking the point of view of a birth parent, fellow bio/ first parents who have followed a similar path, therapists, counselors and other professionals in social work who may not be aware of the past history of adoption involving the Baby-Scoop-Era’s adoption practices. Adoptive parents will appreciate this book so that they can gain better insight and sensitivity for what their adopted son or daughter might be feeling, especially if they consider a reunion with biological family.

Keithley’s account is descriptive, honest and rich in emotion. This is a story of resilience, strength and optimism while confronting many oppositions. She tells her side, as a biological mother with dignity, class, and compassion.

It’s #NAAM! What do YOU think about that?

Happy #NAAM, AKA National Adoption Awareness Month. It’s still early in “the season”, and I am seeing many viewpoints, which is good. Here are the messages or points that stand out to me the most (for now):

1- That #NAAM should be National ADOPTEE Awareness Month rather than ADOPTION. #Medium.com, https://dearadoption.com/

2- That it’s a month to be aware and observe. It’s not necessarily a month to celebrate, which is quite different. #ConversationsAboutAdoption

3- If you feel you must celebrate or commemorate this month, why not read literature created by actual adoptees? #LaureenPittman, https://adoptionmytruth.com/author/livelaughcookeat/

I am OK with representing the many sides of adoption, but it is imperative that as far as the adoptee perspective goes, as many facets of the adoptee experience as possible should be represented; the “happy” stories as well as our struggles. The most honest presentation we can make is to acknowledge that we share many viewpoints and have an impressive array of ideas based on our personal experiences.

If we have so many viewpoints, imagine what the biological and adoptive parents plus social workers must also have if they are honest with themselves. Their stories should also be shared, not just the ones with positive outcomes, but also the times of grief, and worry about making some very difficult, life-altering decisions.

Historically, our side, (the adoptee side), has been the least represented in a balanced way. This needs to change. While it is not wrong to recognize differing opinions from other groups of the adoption sector, adopted individuals need to have their voices (or keyboards ; )  heard and respected with the same enthusiasm and as their respective adoptive and foster parents, social workers, therapists, and biological family.

Not everyone feels that #NAAM is a time to celebrate. Not everyone in the adoption community has had the greatest experience. I’m not saying you should never celebrate the good parts if that is what you feel, but also be mindful that adoption means different things to different individuals.

There are many reputable books, films, podcasts, and social media groups that illustrate an array of adoption and foster care-related experiences. I urge you to both enjoy and also learn from what you take in. If you are a therapist/counselor, honor the month by seeking out professional development opportunities that address adoption concerns. Yesterday’s adoption was only about possibilities, love and better times ahead for all. Today’s adoption has added some modern yet valid opinions and research to this concept showing that it is not simple and easy to be an adoptee, bio-family member or adoptive parent all the time.

Even when it is not simple and easy, however, it is still always right to shed truth and humanism when acknowledging November as #NAAM. It’s not a time to tell adoptees what to think or how to feel, but it can be a time to ask us, “So what do you think about #NAAM?” This should be a time for those who struggle with their adoptee status to find meaningful connections with adoptee peers and colleagues. Connecting with like-minded folks does wonders. Seek out upcoming conferences such as #IAN (Indiana Adoptee Network, #ANC, (Adoption Network Cleveland), #NACAC in Toronto, and the #NAC (National Adoption Conference) in Maryland in 2020. This can also be a time to explore different schools of thought and gain understanding as to why members of our constellation feel the way we do. Also, if you do have expertise in an aspect of adoption, consider becoming a workshop presenter or volunteer for this worthy interest group.

Links to events:

https://www.ncfaconference.org/about

https://www.nacac.org/get-training/conference/

https://www.blogtalkradio.com/indianaadopteenetworknews

https://www.adoptionnetwork.org/2020-conference/journeys-of-discovery-2020-conference.html

There are many ways to educate and network about adoption. The above are just a few.

Parallel Universes has Universal Appeal.

The premise of David B. Bohl’s memoir, Parallel Universes is very relatable for adoptees or any reader who is missing significant information about their past due to actual separation from loved ones or due to physical or mental trauma. (or both)

After confessing about being adopted to some young school peers, David, as a child,  realizes that there is a division between himself and other people who are not adopted. Bohl sees that even under the best of adoption experiences, something is missing (genetic and social history), which separates himself from others who have biological privilege.

(P. 45, “Often it felt as if everybody else got an instruction manual that I clearly had not been given.

(P. 47, “I hadn’t been given the direction that would show me how to be in the world. How did everybody else know how to be?”)

A large part of David Bohl’s story documents his struggles with alcoholism, a condition that runs higher among the adoptee population. Bohl not only felt that he experienced a double identity and universe as an adopted person but also as a drinker.

This book is an amazing and authentic resource for any individual at any age who struggles with addiction. In fact, it’s more about Bohl’s alcoholism and recovery experiences than it is about his being adopted, but he does blend both aspects together before his story concludes. Parallel Universes reads fast and has the feel of sitting together with David at a kitchen table having a Realistic conversation.

(Read the book to understand why I capitalized and italicized “Realistic”!)

We’re Adopted, So What? : Book Review

Gayle and Casey Swift have composed a fun yet factual handbook about how adoption feels from a teenager’s perspective. This is probably at level for a “tween” reader as well. Additionally, the illustrations by Wesley Blauvelt are lively and colorful.

The Swifts jump right in with needed information addressing both positive aspects and also negative points and concerns that young people typically feel regarding their situation as an adoptee. The content is very evenly balanced between what many folks in the adoptee community think of as “good” and “bad”.

This book is easy and quick to take in and allows space for the reader to jot down notes and reflections, much like a school workbook page. Although geared toward ages 10-18 mostly, We’re Adopted, So What? is honestly appropriate for many age ranges and readers who prefer fewer words and something that feels more like a discussion.

I highly recommend We’re Adopted, So What? for prospective adoptive parents, (often called PAPs), educators, counselors, and therapists as well as for adopted people of any age and reading level.

Review of Shadow Baby, by Alison McGhee

Shadow Baby (2000) is a novel by Alison McGhee. Although the main character,  11-year-old Clara, is not an adoptee, she struggles with many issues actual adopted people might face. Clara views everything and everyone in the world uniquely because she has missing family members: a biological father, a maternal widower grandfather who lives reclusively up north, and a ghostly twin sister for whom she mourns. She searches for validation from her functional but traumatized mother, which isn’t happening, but instead, she finds acceptance and a beautiful friendship with an elderly community member after asking him for help with a school research report.

Clara’s quest for truth, no matter how difficult it is, becomes another theme many adopted people can relate with if they have ever wondered about or searched for the family members they’ve never met or but feel a calling to seek out. (This story takes place before using a home DNA kit would have been an option.)

This story is told from the point of view of the quirky, curious and intelligent young girl who struggles at school to fit in, dodges bullies who hover by junior high lockers, loves historical tales and strives to find consistency and sense in her world of information gaps. Young Clara fantasizes about what her long-lost grandfather, father, and sibling must behave like and look like. In her head, she blends her well-researched knowledge of actual history with her active imagination to create vivid and impressive characters and presumed events. As truths are divulged, she must come to terms with make-believe and reality.